After vascular appointment

I'm very low today. I'l explain why after I'm out of the slump. It's not "oh, yeah, you're gonna die" news or anything like that, just a huge nuisance because of circumstances I hate and can't fix.

I don't need anyone's efforts to cheer me up. I just need some time to get my footing back. Posting later.
 

After vascular appointment, follow-up

I've always had this small bit of luck: I've never been told "We can't do the thing that would help most because you're too fat." This has always been a slight surprise to me, given how heavy I am, but welcome. Well, that run came to an end today. I am too fat for the kind of compression hose the vascular specialist would prefer that I use, so I'll be making do with something partial (once we find out what Medicaid will cover) and monitoring to make sure it's doing something for the rest of my legs.

I'm discouraged.

I don't need efforts at cheer or reassurance or any of that stuff. I'll be keeping at it, doing what there is to do, seeking the relief that can be had. Things will change. I just need some time right now to go ahead and deal with one of those hurts I've been dreading for a very long time that finally arrived.